Fathers Day

So the father of my child is not here, there or anywhere. I have mixed feelings about how i am going to deal with this on a lifelong basis. Sometimes i wonder if I made the right decision about becoming a single mom. Was it a selfish decision? Was I so weak that i couldn't give this little joy a family of both mother and father to enjoy? But then I think, what kind of life would he have if he couldn't have known either of his parents? I was capable of keeping my child and am thankful everyday for the decision I made.

As I watch my son in day to day activities I realize how genetically predisposed we are as creatures. Some of his gestures /movements from birth are identical to mine, and even other members of my family. Some of them must be from his father. It is so amazing to be a parent. Especially a mother. You are connected to these little beings from the moment of conception. They live inside of you. And become a part of who you are.

Happy Fathers Day to the fathers of this world. You should be thankful for the children who choose you as parents. It is a gift you give yourself. It can be trying and painful. But on the days when the sun shines just right on you both, it is the greatest love you will ever know. To hear those little laughs, watch those little eyes that look just like yours admiring your wisdom. Feeling so proud when they finally say, Dad.

Much love and gratitude for all that you do.