Scared. in a zen kinda way.

I am scared. no other words describe it. I am scared. not doubt or mistrust. just plain scared. i know you like i know me. we are each other. its not what i wanted. it is what happened. i want to run away from it. i want to leave it. and yet i don't want to leave it. EVER! who am i? what am I... and even scarier? i am so RELAXED! i feel at home. peaceful. drawn to its space like nothing before. what is this life about? how did this happen to me? I wasn't looking and it hit me. I WASNT LOOKING!

backs up. one step one step two. i want to breathe you in. not out. in. in. in. love is a mystery. one that even as long as i have lived, i still don't understand. lets just be K-I-S-S-I-N-G. like the kids we are. steps back and breathes. you. in.