Day Two

This is a card that i was presented with by a shaman sister regarding a personal relationship. i thought how beautiful. Producing a flower and placing it in his lap. Cool and receptive. He is receptive. I can light up his world. What a wonderful thing for me to be allowed to do. It started out like this picture a dream come true. But faded. He became cold and distant. i became frustrated and scared. And that drenched the fire. then came the note. here you go love. i have made a decision. live with it.

I thought about apologizing to poop bag man for the snarky promises blog. That was uncalled for and selfish. But hey. he was selfish too. so it cancels out. I could listen to my heart saying be at peace. yea i think that is what i will do. Be at peace fish-girl. My actions not always pure were driven by love, a true love. a consuming love. a promised love. Thrown into an semi-receptive vessel. That happens to all of us. We live and learn. Time was not on our side.

So as day two of rebuilding my self esteem comes to a close. and i got rewarded today in big ways. Very big ways. Thank you for letting me go. and like i have said before, maybe you will be a sunny day for me again. someday.