Ache

i ache. every pore in my body aches. I am not sure how much more i can handle in this world of love. it keeps tearing my heart apart. and i have to keep piecing it back together. I wish it away. i will away the pain. I make things happen in the meantime. Doing what it takes to keep my son healthy and happy. Fed, and not seeing his mom falling apart. Little by little, eroding into a void. maybe some word will come tomorrow to make me feel alive again. i dont expect it. not at all. but there is always hope.